So for the past few months or so, I’ve been feeling pretty low about myself due to the amount of acne and acne scars that remains on my face. It’s gotten to the point that I can’t even upload pictures without having to edit it on photobucket and constantly use the “fix blemishes button.” I know that we are all going through the process of puberty and it just makes it that much harder if it’s just genetics. I’ve gone through the process of taking pills twice a day for an entire month and within that month, I have probably thrown up maybe everyday or every other day because the medication was just too strong. I had to excuse myself from class on certain days just to run to the trash can without anyone seeing me and puke again. Wipe away the tears and enter the classroom like nothing went wrong. I kept taking the pills because my family wouldn’t stop complaining about it. I kept telling myself that it will get better, but I didn’t see the results. Doctor says I have to take it for more than a month and at every 12 hours? Screw that. I was tired of feeling like shit daily so I gave up. No more puking, no more drowsiness, no more of that constant fear of knowing that something bad will happen to me.
I’m going through the process of feeling so disgusted whenever I see myself in the mirror, but I’m finding a way to bring my self confidence back up again. I don’t know, this is just my story and I felt like I needed to let it out.