Woke up from a dream, dreaming of my first crush telling me how he doesn’t care about me anymore. And everywhere I went, he kept taunting me, adding more responses about how he feels about me. I woke up after that, stood up and almost fell over because I was so dizzy.
Please don’t ever promise me that you’ll always be there for me, please don’t ever promise me that you won’t ever leave me because you know why? I then become very dependent on your words. I start telling you things daily and make sure you hold up your promise. But when the time actually comes, you either leave or ignore me. Then disappointment starts to overwhelm my mind....
My first crush.
It’s crazy how after two years, my feelings for you haven’t changed. No matter how many times I warn myself to stop liking you, I don’t think I can in the matter of years from now. Its just something I’ll keep doing without hesitation.
I AM VERY WELL AWARE THAT I'M DARK.
jenn-fer: Stawp reminding me of my chocolatenes. :( HAHHAHAHAAHHA. I can’t wait to be as dark as you. I’m working on it. ^o^
[insert clever title here]: Marijuana. →
eyerisss: It’s everywhere, and “everyone” seems to be doing it. Some people are strongly against it while others make this a big part of their life, and see nothing wrong with it. A lot of people tell me: “Drugs and alcohol aren’t that bad. Weed doesn’t even harm your body, it can actually improve this and…
To be the greatest.
Now that I see it, it’s quite frightening when you think about college. I really don’t realize how fast high school is going. There’s only like what? Three more months of sophomore year and then there’s junior year. Last time I’ve checked, it feels like I’m in December. Lately, all I’ve been seeing is seniors getting into all of these colleges. Half of...
Lately I’ve been pretty honest with the guy I like. Telling him about my feelings whenever I feel like it’s right. Sigh, whatever mess I get into, I won’t blame it on you this time.
It’s so great that you’re acting like such a badass just because you lost your virginity. It’s so great to hear about how buzzed you got over the weekend. It’s so great to hear about how high you got at a party. It’s so great how you always vandalize people’s property when you’re bored. It’s just amazing how you’re wasting your time doing all...
At this point, I’m just going to sit back and watch you guys make your own decisions. I’ve contributed enough of my time in helping one another. I’m always letting the situation get to me even when I’m not the opponent. Let’s say, I won’t give up entirely, but just let time do it’s job. See what goes well for both of you.
I can only tolerate so much, before I literally start to corrupt.
Just a title.
I’m really starting to lose my respect to you as a friend. I don’t care if I’ve mentioned you as a close friend of mine or not. Your acts is just something I’m not going to tolerate. Everytime I talk to you, it’s like I’m talking to a wall. Always making me feel like a pathetic loser. It’s not fun.
A voice from the past.
I’m glad that you’re doing great, grandpa. It’s nice getting to hear from you after so many years. I remember when I was around 5 years old and you would ask me to punch your back because it was always aching. You would give me and my brother a couple dollars each time. Honestly, I started crying when I heard about your story with grandma. You don’t need me to type this out...
I hate when I’m in the middle of talking to someone and that person talks to someone else and leaves me hanging. What the fuck. Rude much.
Im really not interested in listening to your bullshit right now.
Sade was singing to me through the phone and this I’d how it went.. Sade: and girl if you were stuck in the middle of the sea, I’ll be the one, to drown you…-_- sigh. Oh wells. He’s still the only guy who actually sings to me^.^ or attempt to…LOL
When I was younger, my mom use to buy me underwear that had the different days of the week on it. On each day I would wear the day that it is just to help remind me. LOL. Yeah, its just one of those childhood things that I liked.
What the. Just found out that my cousin is wearing a huge cast on her left leg and is sitting in a wheel chair. Well idk about the wheelchair part but seriously, where have I been? -.-
Sean Kim loves my lingerie mask<3
Just forget it and back away.
I really hate how you always have more attention on her than on me. It’s so pathetic. Apparently everything she says is more important than mines. Oooooh so interesting. Yeah whatever. stfu. Watch, when I really need to tell you something, I bet you’ll only be able to catch less than half of the things I say. Please give me some respect please, at least.
Early saturday nights.
Today has just been plain hectic. Change of plans. Switching locations of the party. Splitting up into two seperate groups. Good amount of tears. Plenty of confusion and awkward moments. But yeah, it’s amazing what close friends would do to make one person happy. At least this night became somewhat memorable. Hmms..
So you go to sadies and see the girl you USE to like, whoring it up with all of these guys. Then at the after party, she gets drunk and start doing insane things making you feel used. You were smart enough to not join in with the getting drunk part. What I still don’t get is why do you want to make something out of this so called friendship of yours with her? She flirts with you for one...
Was suppose to do a project in the morning but it turned out the complete opposite. This is my first time I’ve ever seen one of my guy friends’ cry. Shocking. Sigh, so instead of working, we ended up walking around the neighborhood and just let our mind think about other things. Bought boba then went to the park. Hopefully, I made him a bit happier today. I really do try my best to get...
K that’s cool. Just another big disappointment from you. No worries though, I won’t get so fussed over about it as much as last time. I hope you have a good one.
tuesdayswithlyndon: i get emotionally attached to people who take care of me. whether it be family or friends, lovers, likers, strangers. I get emotionally attached when you put your hand out to me.
Sigh tomorrow is the masquerade party and all I’ve been doing this week is eat. In one day, I would eat 2-3 bowls of something, then eat junk food and then treat myself to some icecream. After every two or so hours, I would then eat again. No exercising or nothing this week. Just chowing down to anything I’m craving for. I am what I eat, I guess.